Ectopic Pregnancy

My blood results Monday again were low but they were higher then Friday. In my mind this is good news, they are not going down. I have an ultrasound on Tuesday to check up  from my ER visit and to confirm why my HCG levels are so low for 6 weeks pregancy.

I go to my Tuesday appt w/ the intended parents. We are all set up for the ultrasound. The Dr comes in, sits down and starts our appt by saying, based off the HCG levels this is an abnormal pregnancy. Of course I had no idea what to expect. He also says based off my previous ultrasounds in November and earlier in January there were no follicles on either ovary for a cyst to grow, there's no way I had cysts. He says we will also find out why I was in pain from this ultrasound. All I am thinking is WTF????

The Dr starts the ultrasound by looking at the uterus. There is no pregnancy sac. . .

The Dr looks at my right ovary. My right ovary is surrounded in fluid. Not good.

Wait, there has to be a pregnancy sac, if there was no sac then I wouldn't have an HCG level.

And there it is hanging out in my left fallopian. So the Dr tells me the pain that put me in the hospital was my body trying to get the embryo out of my fallopian tube.

Next I schedule an appt w/ my OB to decide what needs to be done. Per the fertility Dr, If my body was successful at moving the embryo out of the tube then I may need a DNC. If my body was able to get it to the end of the tube then they may be able to vacuum it out. If it is still in the tube then they will have to remove the tube.

Thursday comes. Per my Dr the embryo is too far up the tube for options one and two. To my relief he does provide me w/ another option. He says they can give me a low dose of chemo. This is not a 100% guarantee. But 75% of the time it breaks down the embryo tissues which my body would reabsorb and then get rid of once I have a menstrual cycle. Of course I choose this option over having surgery and losing one of my fallopian tubes.

Friday comes and my body is agitated all day. I have a little pain and a lot of nausea. By 10:30 I am back in horrific pain. I called my daughter's father to please come over and be w/ Bella. He of course is instantly on his way. I called my friend Britney who agrees to take me to the Er once Chris gets here. I am in pain and throwing up and scared. Chris gets here and Britney and I leave for the hospital.

Luckily they are not crazy busy. There is no one in the waiting room and I get seen very quickly. They do an ultrasound and the chemo is currently not breaking anything up. It's only been a little over 24 hrs so the Dr was not expecting the embryo to be broken up yet but was expecting some of the fluid around my ovaries to have been broken up. But everything is as it was before and the Dr decides to do surgery. So an hour later my fallopian tube is being removed. I was released from the hospital today and am doing pretty well. Emotionally I am a little jaded.

The good news is it was only one tube so I can still have more kids. It is still very emotional, not only because  I had to have surgery, but because I lost a part of me. I lost part of my reproduction system. Most of today I have been emotionally ok. And the rest of the day it doesn't make sense. W/ IVF there is only a 1% chance of ectopic pregnancy. I am that 1% chance. I am now w/ out one tube and the family I was trying to help is still w/ out a child. How is that fair? I know things in life happen for a reason, but why??

I do wanna thank you all for your support and reading my story. Thank you for your kind words and prayers.